Milit [IZM]

h_militizm @ 2008-02-07T08:35:00

2008-02-07T13:35:58Z

Sometimes I say goodbye dear misery
and my dreams carry me away
I dont wonder why youre not here with me
Maybe youre not my favorite mistake.

h_militizm @ 2008-01-28T20:08:00

2008-01-29T01:09:09Z

I wish i wouldn't question
the things i don't want the answer to.
When everything in life is turned around
and theres no one left to blame,
I kick myself again and again.

Song lyrics 1

2008-01-15T13:34:56Z

When holding time and space
In your hands
Are you playing god with me
[nothing in life really matters]
Would you dive from heaven
Without a scar
And find a life in hell
[that’s not so far away]

The world knows that
Nothing interests me
But you seem to think
What I say means something
Take another look inside
And what you’ll see
Is another broken dream
From the lies that burden me.

2007年12月20日

2007-12-20T20:55:54Z

I sit alone in my closet playing with my mind.
Its surprising the conversation when you’re talking to the dead.
If I were alone id feel worthless and miniscule.
Honestly I miss you, because you made me wish I weren’t alive.
I knew I loved you because it pained me.
A thorn that’s long gone, but its sting still lingers.
My heads empty and I can’t find the trigger.
It’s hard to write today, there’s nothing logical, nothing spontaneous.
Not a thought.
These memories of mine are sure to fade

h_militizm @ 2007-11-21T07:28:00

2007-11-21T12:29:22Z

I don't know why i say the things I do.
But, It seems that no one else is good enough, truely.
Maybe im an idiot.

Identity 1

2007-11-08T12:52:20Z

Personal identity (Metaph.), the persistent and continuous unity of the individual person, which is attested by consciousness. - Dictionary.com

How can we prove that we are the same person a minute or even second in the future when time is constantly changing and actions or words, thoughts and memories are changed as time progresses.

The problem of memory:
As I age and time continues the memories of the past become vague and unclear. Sometimes my memories are even the the point of irrational when I've filled in the missing spaces with things that make sense to keep the story in a flow without consciously meaning to. If I do not remember my younger self, Is It I who was living then? In the moments of my life where I periodically take actions that are not true to myself, without recalling them, was it my true self or identity that has committed these such actions? A photograph exists where I am painting but, I've never painted a portrait in my life.

The Problem of Thought:
I never seem to remember my thoughts that I have had five minutes ago, therefore is my need to write everything down. Could thoughts possibly make up a persons identity? Add in a new piece of information that can alter your mind or opinion in a split second. Your thoughts have changed. Your identity has changed.

The Problem of Actions:
Much similar to the problem of thought, it's also changing with time. Just because you have choose to walk instead of drive, does this factor into your identity. An Action that counteracts with your cognitive thought, an incompatibility and everything is thrown off.

The Split-Brain.
Our brains are split into two independently working hemispheres. So scientifically speaking, which hemisphere of your brain gives you identity? Is it both? no, It is none.

We do not have personal identity.
We follow the social contract and live according to our actions of today and haunting of the past based on the need for a workable society.

h_militizm @ 2007-11-07T07:57:00

2007-11-07T12:58:30Z

It's not real though im still agitated by it.
It's not real but i can't get around it.

I don't understand why i get jealous either.
But thats a different topic.

h_militizm @ 2007-11-06T07:44:00

2007-11-06T12:46:57Z

Today will be another one of the longest days in my life.
Im watching the walls as they all cave in.
Helpless to move out of the way.
But, I suppose some things are never meant to reach the ground.
Some things are not meant to be stable.
and on the other hand,
Some things are never meant to leave it.
Ill never grow wings.
I'm not meant to fly.

Existentialism is so ironic.

blah

2007-11-05T19:40:45Z

the days are getting longer still.
I dont think its simply winter setting in.
I had a dream i was in a candy factory where all that they made was licorice.
I definately hate licorice.

5:50

2007-03-07T22:52:35Z

Today I feel like I'm stupid.
Not for any reason...or anything that I've done or said in particular.
I'm boring myself today.
Why can't I do something entertaining. (-_-;)
Usually I can AT LEAST keep myself interested in me.

h_militizm @ 2007-03-01T01:24:00

2007-03-01T06:25:09Z

I went to a dance party
I can't dance
It was fun

Oha~

2007-02-14T03:04:58Z

ひさしぶりですね？
Just to catch up;
I'm in school now.
Living in the Meadows...
『Ok On Campus, with Rin.』

There might be a snow day tomorrow.
I'm hoping.

h_militizm @ 2006-09-14T16:23:00

2006-09-14T20:27:13Z

I need to write myself a note, To remind me that I shouldn't take myself so seriously.

h_militizm @ 2006-09-02T21:31:00

2006-09-03T01:33:30Z

His names Reno!

Cure- I don't give a shit about cuts.

2006-09-02T15:51:14Z

It's been so long!~
I'll tell some, and some more later.
But I'm sick again.

Follow the fake cut ~

Type your cut contents here.

I went and seen K-rockathon 11, with the bands Seether, Shinedown, Buckcherry, Candlebox, Blue October, Breaking Benjamin, Hurt, Evans Blue, People In Planes, & Brace ... July 22nd, 2006 at Weedsport Speedway.
Evans Blue was caught in the 17 mile traffic jam and missed their set time.
This time the show was SOLD OUT before it happened.
It was a mud pit.. huge mud pit. I wish that I could have been on the stage seeing the crowd, It was definatly something.. I went home that night looking like a swamp monster! It was A LOT of fun. I was impressed by a lot of the bands.
http://www.krockathon.com/index.php?module=gallery <- this is a gallery on the krockathon site.

.VI is looking for a drummer.
Saikoro is looking for a drummer.

HERES THE REAL NEWS!
http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1537547/20060801/story.jhtml

The other day I went to a Family Values Tour Show in Darien Lake.
There were different things to do like Ghost Recon and a Paintball war going on..
But! I don't care about that... The bands were :
Korn (headliner)
Deftones (co-headliner)
Stone Sour
Flyleaf
Dir en grey
10 Years
Deadsy
Bury Your Dead
Bullets and Octane

Did I need to point this out
DIR EN GREY
I shook Toshiya and Die's hands after the show.
The show was great!

10 years IS AN AWESOME BAND

The Deftones sucked.
Korn was awesome.

I'm not doing the detail thing,

stonesour 10 years ( I really like the vocalist LOL)deadsy
And the one I was waiting for:::: *drum roll* oh shit we don't have a drummer uhhh..*taps desk*
Die smiles a lot.
I love him hahahaha! *fangirl squeak* Toshiya looked so shy. I panicked and couldn't even say more than "hi"

h_militizm @ 2006-04-05T15:19:00

2006-04-05T19:15:53Z

I want Chocolate (o_o)....

♥

2006-03-28T13:23:14Z

♥ I GOT A NEW RING!♥

It looks like Vivienne Westwood。 O_O
So!　Is it real?

A　Friend sent me a c.d of ”Pata's Band”, but there are no names on the songs-So I can't tell you which i like best。
It is very good though!　
The songs are in English。

Welcome 8-9-X

2006-03-22T02:45:54Z

I'm Home (´∇`)ノ♪!
Yesterday I went with my dad to Buffalo.
Hurry up and Go~ 3 hour ride.
but, it's only me to be laughing. Such as haha! ( ゜∀゜)

Kweh, they are disgusting McMuffins (>з<)！！

The Drive was not so bad.
Buffalo is a BIG city!
I was Suprised, though this is not the first time I have been there,
Oh a Slow song on the 【radio】.

We got home at nearly 7p.m. and I fell asleep.

Today, I went to the store.
☆I bought a sundae☆
.

【Peanutbutter-Pineapple-Marschmellau!】

h_militizm @ 2006-03-18T01:11:00

2006-03-18T06:58:31Z

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY

What no green font, You lazy !@#($)#*@_$(@*)$# ...
yeah I know I know. X_X

(≧∇≦)

2006-03-16T01:27:37Z

I didn't realize how many people watch the videoblogs on youtube.com.
Soon we'll think of a Cam-whore as [ ThE LosT GeNeraTion]
Maybe It will replace myspace?! *gasp*

It's been snowing all day.

３－２－３２１　PARADE~!

2006-03-14T01:32:16Z

It rained,
Heavy.
　＜ーChopper~
　←Sheba

hi-ho XD

2006-03-13T08:42:41Z

UWAH! 3:34a.m ~(;´д`) !!!!!!
I'll make the layout better later.. (@_@)
ANCAFE

(≧∇≦)☆ SPRINKLES!

I'm so hungry.

It's bedtime now though for me ,I think. XD

おやすみ！(≧∇≦)！！！